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Sunday, July 20, 2008

jus feel like blogging now..
sucks.. sometimes to please others is hard, very hard..
to me, as long as the people ard me is happy, even if its at my expense, all is fine.. peace and harmony..
since sec sch, frens haf been telling me tt its nvr possible to please everyone but, to me, if someone, esp my close frens is unhappy, i will take it as my fault.. so by hook or by crook i'll haf to cheer him/her up..
i dunno why but i will jus keep self reproach and tink of ways to make sure he/she is not angry anymore..
actually im fine with it but when ppl don appreciate it or take it for granted, i will feel being made used of.. if u at the very least express gratitude, i will feel v happy, otherwise, i will keep tinking why am i being made used of..

why is it tt when something happens, i'll haf to be the one to try and settle it? is it cos i volunteered once then its taken that its my duty?
why is it tt ppl will sort of "show colour" to me but not to others? is it im too soft hearted such tt u can vent it on me, tinking tt i will jus treat it as nth will happen?
why is it tt when something happens, ppl can treat it like nth has happened and carry on but i will haf to do the rubbish work like explaining wat actually happen and to make sure tt there's no misunderstanding?
why is it tt only i will start to worry and fumble when something happens?

Also, since sec sch, i alr don mind when ppl say tt of me.. but how come recently when certain ppl says it i will feel inferior? its sad, real sad.. i nvr EVER felt tis way before.. maybe its bcos its said to me continously, repeatedly.. so much so that i fear hearing such stuff nowadays.. :'( its like ppl can say it, laugh it off with others and wad can i do? pretend to laugh with them.. if not wad? turn and show face? i will not dare to do that.. why? cos im such a loser..

What happen to "feeling free and easy in front of frens?"
i dunno, but mayb its the stress tt is pounding everyone now such tt ppl gets panicky and vent it on others, even i do tt sometimes, i noe..

im not complaining here, jus had all these in my mind while doing tutorials, so jus wanna let it out..

anyways, thks to those tt appreciate me for who i am.
like the old cliche saying, "good frens are hard to come by".

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Monday, July 07, 2008

beauty in his eyes!

shuai!

god-like! woo~!

is he human? damn he's hot!

JESSE McCARTNEY !
OMG ! he is soooo cool la!! why is it only now then i realised his cool-ness, given my thing for caucasions?! DAMN!
shuai dai le!! *dazzled*
btw, he wrote BLEEDING LOVE eh.. not bad ar.. hahas and he is voice of cutey THEODORE of Alvin & the chipmunks..

he's only 21 !! started performing at the age at 10.. awesome! hahas

ANYWAYS, went to ACJC choir concert today wit my pri sch clique..
hahas long time no see but still as crazy :)

didn noe the GOH is president nathan :S i was late, they waited, and we could only go in the next admission cos don wan disturb audience :( felt so guilty..

anyways, the concert was not bad, i tink.. jus that too many slow songs.. 1 song was particularly surprising =) many stunts.. anyway, they were the only asian choir that took part in some competition k.. don play play =) hehes

oh ya went supper and talked crap with them at bangkit then we noticed the ah peks there keep staring at us la WTH.. the guys finished their drinks then we ZAO already -_-

the guys talked abt "hard gay" frm youtube, said he is funny but i still tink JEFF DUNHAM is funnier! hahas... ACH-MED ;) then were going on abt incredible tale stuffs and all -_- HELLO! it was alr midnite can.. zi xin and i were so scared we quickly talked abt "ms swan".. hahas

had fun!

hmm...
JJ
CHANNING TATUM
ZAC EFRON
JESSE McCARTNEY (new addition!)

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Thursday, July 03, 2008

``fRieNds foR life ^_^

well....its over ! at least for now -_- MYE is finally over but i tell u is freaking hard !

esp maths :'( ok mayb its not tt hard for some ppl but to me, hard as a rock ! Kk.. -_-

but seriously, confirm flunk tis time's MYE, esp maths.. mayb cos i concentrated on other subs (esp bio !) tis time round tt's why lag.. so my bio better improve, at least pass la pls... hais but dunno.. i mean MYE already like tt, A's how?

ANYWAYS, council video was fun today ! ZHONG RI actually recorded down every sec and make sure everybody gets to appear on the video ok! THX BESTIE ! he actually sacrificed his bio revision time..

it was Izz and me to do our thing first.. oh my gosh i will nvr make it at showbiz ! i myself found myself soooo fake in front of the camera that we had soooo many NG scenes.. luckily its only for a few secs for our scene if not tink will take up the entire day ! then had assorted video takings , thou the waiting was kinda exhausting but the WATER BOMBS at the end was cool :) thx Izz for betraying me and aiming at u know where! tsk! but it was fun throughout =)

then council went to occupy like 14 seats in "STREETS" in bp plaza and had our dinner... my stone pot rice sux like hell la! so nan chi... i cant even finish the thing thou i was starving -_-

went to watch WANTED after that... ANGELINA JOLIE is HOT ! the storyline is kinda not bad... didnt quite expected it to be like tt... so many movies i wanna watch! ZOHAN [dunno still screening nots ): ] , GET SMART, HANCOCK, HELLBOY2, PENELOPE, NEVER BACK DOWN... argh...

anyways, tink i'm neutral alr :) gd for myself huh! hahas.. well i was kinda stupid and dumb but at least i noe wad i wan now :) GD!

OK! nitey nite! slp tight, don let the bed bugs bite ! hehes..

ADIOS...

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